At this very moment, I'm still wiping my tears running down my cheeks. I'm broken-hearted and its all my fault. We broke up, he surrendered. I mean, he was always suffering from my personality since the day we started this relationship. And now, napuno na siya. It hurts me soo bad realizing that even he has limits in his patience on me. I can't imagine hearing those words, "Ulahi na ang tanan." As he utter those lines, it was as if my world stopped. I really did not expect that this would happen. I was so afraid, afraid of loosing him. We've been in a long distance relationship since before our first anniversary, and trust is our only glue which makes us stick with each other keeping this relationship. He said, "It's really hard nowadays to find someone who's honest/loyal to a long distance relationship." I agree, but why was I so tanga on things. I broke his trust. In return, he broke my heart unintentionally and it's all because of me.
God gave me blessings that are hard to find, yet I take them for granted. There are so many things that I should be thankful of. But why am I such a brat? I can't control and figure out myself.
It hurts me so bad thinking that we'll be apart forever. That he already gave up with our relationship.
Then I got this last chance. All I got right now is last chance. My parents even gave me last chance on my studies. Naghihirap na ako. And I do think also that I deserve such. It's just so hard for me to change, fix, organize and discipline myself. Why does it have to be like this? Am such a brat jud! God help me. Send me a miracle!
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